Lost Illusions: A Retrospective

by Martin Del Carpio

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about

I have been in this place before. A couple of times actually. It's not Deja Vu. It's simply the price to pay when you keep something pure and simple. But there's a slight difference now.

Ever since I was a kid, I always had a natural affinity for music. I understood the pure essence of what it takes to create a song. To sit and write some lines and then put them to music. That I understood thanks to all the many records I grew up listening to in my room for countless hours.

The trick is how to transform that kind of passion into something more palpable in our everyday survival.

That's something I haven't been able to learn. It's a kind of art that not everyone can possess.

You can either keep yourself living in a dream and just continue for art's sake or you can finally learn from your lessons and evolve in a different direction.

I hereby present to you, in one single package, what I consider my most essential recordings from the beginning. It's where you'll find a young man armed with a deep desire to simply record original songs that come from the heart. This same young man was told by many others that he won't even be able to accomplish his first demo.

I have met many great creative types along the way and it would be ideal to make a thank you list particularly for this collection. But in all honesty, I don't believe in that and those who matter already know personally how much I appreciate whatever contributions they provided for my art.

I'll leave you with this poem entitled The End Of The Dream that Jim Morrison of The Doors once wrote. It befits my creative life all the way through!

M.

"The end of the dream
will be when it matters

All things lie
Buddha will forgive me
Buddha will"

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released 17 June 2014

Music producers and songwriters: Michael Costanzo, Little Pioneer, Jaime Muffett and Martin Del Carpio.

Album cover photo by Bill Stratford.

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Martin Del Carpio New York, New York

Martin Del Carpio aka M. is a music artist.

In 2011, Martin Del Carpio worked with British music producer Jamie Muffett on X.

In 2013, a new album entitled Godard has been released.

In 2014, a retrospective compilation has been released with the title of Lost Illusions.

A remix single for the track Anon will also be released in 2014 with DJ Afro of Los Amigos Invisibles
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Track Name: 17
You haven't lost your crown. The gold is still right there. A believer in your heart. You were only 17.

I don't I don't dream anymore...like everybody everybody else. You'll never find the heart if you're not looking for it.

You think it's all so fake. You think the walls are down. Holier than thou. You were only 17.

I don't, I don't care anymore. Nobody, nobody calling on the phone. You'll never find the heart if there's no ring to it.

"this is your private revolution Joe. Throw away the books. Burn your CDs. This is your very own revolution."

I don't, I don't dream anymore...like everybody, everybody else. You'll never find the heart if you're not looking for it.

I don't, I don't care anymore. Nobody, nobody calling on the phone. You'll never find the heart if there's no ring to it...no feel to it...no soul to it.
Track Name: Anon
Another night wasted to its core
dark rooms blurry in their sunlight
the dirty pretty things you know so well you
another night hungry to the bone
dark faces hidden in the shadows
all dirty pretty things you want so much you...you want
beneath it all you move harder to the beat
underneath it all you elevate all senses
beneath it all you move harder to the beat
underneath it all you elevate your heart

Anon Anon Anon...

Atomic lover you take it all in
across another you sway to the rhythm
moving deeper there's nothing left for you
there's no one here for you

beneath it all you move harder to the beat
underneath it all you elevate all senses
beneath it all you move harder to the beat
underneath it all you elevate your heart

Anon anon anon...

tell me what'cha saw
tell me what'cha did
c'mon say everything
tell me what'cha felt
tell me what'cha did
c'mon give everything yeah
tell me what'cha saw
tell me what'cha did
nothing could be so blind
tell me what'cha felt
tell me what'cha did
nothing could feel so good

Anon Anon Anon...
Track Name: Adam
His heart is filled with pain
And you, you want a taste of it
So you look for him
You yearn for him...

And Adam, Adam tasted

What you've seen maybe I'll never see
What you've loved maybe I'll never love
oh what you've lived I'll never live

He, he was made from dust
And you, you crawl on your belly
To find him
To find you...

What I've seen maybe you'll never see
What I've loved maybe you'll never love
And what I've lived you will never live...

Live...
Track Name: Piano
Seeing you from a distance
the moonlight tries to shine
through the room
darkness overwhelms you
I see my ghost before you
and I'm not actually there
I barely touched the piano
the piano

Melodies sing from your throne
a deep voice that stands alone
sing sing all the way
take me afar with your lustrous sound
but I barely touched the piano
the piano piano
but I barely touched the piano
piano

Dust clings to you now
will the keys sound flat when they're touched
what does it matter
why bother my bitter dreamer
let imagination take over
without touching the piano
the piano...
Track Name: Alien
"I was alive in my sleep till a knock on the door made my worst nightmare come true. I gave my name when they asked for it. I gave up with nothing to hide anymore. I was taken in handcuffs while my porn book was opened for everyone to view. Once outside I observed the beginning of a new day. I felt the coldness of the ground..."

Was I blind not to see that it wasn't meant for me that it wasn't meant to be or is it all in my mind!?

"They spoke in a foreign language they took me to a foreign place where I posed for a black and white photo that defines me now. turn right turn left you got me at every angle you got me. for hours and hours I sat and thought about all those fake promises all those fake indentities false. For 45 days I tried and tried but the bleakness of my situation overwhelmed me yes I was too tired to fight I was too I couldn't no lawyers no one was able to save me no one. I went back to the beginning to the end and back again to figure out how did I end up in that place. I had 45 days to reminisce..."

Was I blind not to see that it wasn't meant for me that it wasn't meant to be or is it all in my mind!?

"Intimacy was obsolete of course I slept with one eye opened and one eye closed. Guilty yes if that's what they wanted for me to admit Guilty I was guilty. Guilty of trying to resolve my status. Guilty of trying to live the American dream. Guilty of being a survivor. Guilty of being an alien...an illegal alien. So deportation came along and I went from country to country from airport to airport from place to place till I touched home where it's not now. Home I am home mother. Guilty I am guilty mother."
Track Name: Plata Quemada (Burnt Money)
Con un punal en el corazon te dejaron
tirado en la calle sin palabras y sin rumbo
un mundo que solo fue un fuerte no
plata quemada plata que ya no existe

te fueron infiel te dejaron sin voz
y ahora que que mas quisieras decir
mirando de frente se esfumaron las traiciones
y ya plata pa que si se sigue quemando

como viento al aire mira como eres libre
sin convicciones sin cadenas que te amarran
ese lugar que solo fue un fuerte no
y esa maldita plata vas a quemar

"ciudadanos lloramos gritamos por plata
el mundo da vueltas por plata
un amigo un hermano se va por plata
hasta la misma religion pide algo de plata
pero aqui en este vacio donde no hay nada
podemos ver las cenizas de lo que fue
plata quemada"
Track Name: Sonoko
Girl you ran, you ran away from home
Don't look back is what you said to him
In time Bass Goddess, he will see... he'll see

On those streets, you have gotten a little dirty
In his arms, you have gotten a little bruised
On that stage, you have learned to survive...to survive

Oh, where have those dreams gone to? Where is your life? What has it become? Those times you have known are there in your heart you could never let go.

No regrets, no time for bitterness
In this world, where you've been twice around
Oh how many corners you have turned...you've turned

Girl you took my breath away from me
I saw you once on my TV screen
I thank you now for all those...illusions

Oh, where have those dreams gone to? Where is your life? What has it become? Those times you have known are there in your heart you could never let go.

Oh, where have those dreams gone to? Where is your life? What has it become? Those times you have known are there in your heart you could never never let go.
Track Name: Suddenly, Last Summer
Suddenly Last Summer he wasn't there anymore
longing for the beginning where it all began

you were the one up on that screen
shining brighter than the rest

all the nights those lonely nights
they found you in strange places
you found a way to disappear
and let yourself go

you were drawn to a spotlight
a different kind of impression
you took your lines and gave us
the truth inside you've had

Suddenly Last Summer he wasn't there no more
longing for the beginning where it all began

beauty fades is what they say
the same face that isn't there
but deep down we are all the same
Monty you're one of us...
Track Name: The World Again
A complicated dance
unspoken words
your soul vibrates
you should let them know
your heart's failure
your heart's desire yea
everything you've got inside of you

rest your head now
you got a mind beating
to the rhythm of the waves
where all illusions...

the world, the world again
the world, the world you see
another place another time
gone by for today you will find

the world, the world again
the world, the world has come
another place another time
gone by for today you will find

A complicated dance
unspoken words
your soul vibrates
you should let them know
your heart's triumph your heart's desire yes
the beauty of what is created so easily

the world, the world again
the world, the world you see
another place another time
gone by for today you will find

the world, the world again
the world, the world has come
another place another time
gone by for today you will find...
Track Name: Afterglow
Welcome to this life of yours
The promise of every act
The sound...the voice

The way the way it felt
The way the way it was

Afterglow the best
Afterglow you believe in an
Afterglow a state of...

Afterglow the greatest
Afterglow what you need is an
Afterglow a moment of...

Welcome to this life of yours
No concept in the overturn
No pitch...no vision

The way the way it felt
The way the way it was

Afterglow the best
Afterglow you believe in an
Afterglow a state of...

Afterglow the greatest
Afterglow what you need is an
Afterglow a moment of...

Afterglow the greatest
Afterglow you believe in an
Afterglow a moment of...

Afterglow the best
Afterglow you believe in an
Afterglow a state of...

"welcome to this life of yours
the promise of every act
the promise of every act you ever had
the sound the voice the voice in you
the way the way it felt
the way the way it should be the way it was
so welcome to this life
this life that you call yours
no concept there's no concept in the overturn
no pitch no vision
where has it all gone to now!?
the way the way it felt
it's the way the way it was
no concept in this life of yours
there's no Afterglow...."
Track Name: Xenophobia 88
Through the crowded space we make our way the pride that makes us fools the type that makes us blind...immigrant sky million pieces we break ourselves we push around...Through the crowded space we make our way the pride that makes us fools the type that makes us blind...immigrant sky million pieces we break ourselves we make our way.

This is the dignity this is the liberty a corruption a construction...and there you are there you stand forget the heart forget this land of yours...this is democracy this is salvation a corruption a construction...and there you are there you stand forget the heart forget this land of ours.

XENOPHOBIA! XENOPHOBIA!
XENOPHOBIA! XENOPHOBIA!

Waiting to be found were you even lost were you even there do you even care...bursting the core suffering an age disillusion galore. Waiting to be found were you even lost were you even there do you even care...bursting the core suffering an age disillusion galore.

XENOPHOBIA! XENOPHOBIA!
XENOPHOBIA! XENOPHOBIA!

XENOPHOBIA! XENOPHOBIA!
XENOPHOBIA! XENOPHOBIA!

CORRUPTION! CONSTRUCTION!
NO DIGNITY! NO LIBERTY!

CORRUPTION! CONSTRUCTION!
NO DIGNITY! NO LIBERTY!
Track Name: Spring Snow
Spring snow...
don't let it slip from your hands
don't let it fall to the ground
spring snow.

Spring snow...
catch it with your tongue
grab it before it's gone
spring snow.
Track Name: Let The Right One In
And so it seems...never did I think I'd find...someone like you...never did I think I'd deserve...in my endless search...I have fallen between the cracks...to even try...to pull myself together for you.

But here I am Here I stand
In the middle of it all

Here I breathe and here I will...
let the right one in

Sometimes it's hard...to accept the way life is...when you feel...you're destined to be all alone...so deep down...I thank you for this mess that's ours.

Here we stand face to face
In the middle of it all
Here we know here we will
let the right one in...